Today was the one time in the year that Eric's mom and dad were front and center in our life. Oddly, I miss them...a lot.
I met Eric's mom briefly when she was living at the house she owned with her ex, the one Eric was living in when I met him, then I started to get to know her better when she was getting sober(which she did with flying colors). She didn't really like me at first, probably cause I was a bit like her and had some of the same behaviors. I think over the years she learned to love me...maybe she never really liked me, I'm not sure.
I'm not sure how I met Eric's dad, more than likely it was when he brought some of Eric's stuff to my house the first time.
Today was a day of happiness for us, every year...opening gifts, having food and spending time just hanging out...it was simple, but it was good.
I haven't contacted either of them since the split other than to give Eric's mom some cupcakes for mother's day and to send her and her partner a card congratulating them on their wedding.
I don't feel like I'm welcome to contact them either. I wish they would call me, and tell me they want to see me. But I suppose that would hinder my healing as well.
When you have traditions, and people that are a part of your life for so long, you really lose feel lost when those traditions and people aren't around anymore.
I don't understand how to feel or how to be a part of something else yet. I don't want to right now.
Today, it might be Christmas Eve for many, but for me, it's a day to mourn the loss of something that I took for granted every year before now.
I miss and love them very much still and I hope that their Christmas Eve is filled with love, laughter and happiness!
Pan
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